sent to drain.
Secret destroyers……
Wow, flashbacks to 1996. Mellon Collie and the infinite sadness. Living with my father. Rob and Kristy.
The days of the past……..
What stands out for me today is actually that I was poor, and I’m not anymore. Now those of you who read the Kal-El blog know that I was obviously aware of it. Growing up I knew we didn’t have money, duh. What I never realised until a few years ago was just how poor life was. Life leads you to assumptions. Some of these are wrong, very wrong.
The wealthy buy new cars.Only the wealthy. I honestly never put any thought into what a new car cost. Seeing that you can buy a brand new car for under $20k was a shock to me. I imagined it was out of most people’s reach.
Even later in life this affects me. I don’t know where I spend half the money I spend. I drop everything imaginable on liv. Why should you miss out?
She is by no means spoiled and is appreciative of everything she gets as we discuss a lot, but if we are at the shops and there is something inexpensive she wants. A new barbie ($7 each wtf!, I thought they were $50) or a treat from a donut shop as we pass. There isn’t any harm.
She has piles of books in her room, and a large assortment of make beleive toys (cooking and dolls and so on) because Dad believes in active entertainment. And these things help.
I hated missing out, I hated being the kid who couldn’t have something, who never knew what some cool toy was because it simply never happened.
I don’t profess to be wealthy, in fact I’m in more debt than I should be, but I enjoy life and Liv is happy. I am slowly building my goals and improving things.
It’s just tough sometimes to see some things. I buy little things for myself. A game, a book, a trip to the movies. It is unfathomable that I have worked so hard to be where I am to not get anything I enjoy. A little stress release makes the month that little bit easier.
In other news, just completed the design on a new website (will be a full article about it on e-timpa as soon as it launches), secured another website to be built, convinced a client to change to hosting with me and just setup a friend with some webhosting. If you’re reading this, you’re welcome, no need to thank me again, I know you appreciate it. And you’d do the same for me if you had excess space lying about.
Timps is still sleeping and enjoying things more, I got a congratulatory note at work the other day for attending bright and early. It was nice to see a little acknowledgement of the troubled times.
Who knows how long before I can live a normal life, until then, I’ll keep going to bed excessively early.
Goodnight all.
Timps
The golden compass: Seen it.
My ipod being stolen and switching back to the shuffle: Didnt see it coming.
